D-Venom

Back in the day When nothing was wrong I didn't know anything all along Back in the day when the world was all right All I could think of was holding you tight I was afraid to take a stance Even though I had a chance But everything now I'm brand new Although apart I still feel I'm with you I rarely see your face But past memories capture it in place I keep replaying them all the time In the back of my mind Thinking about the time without you Surely has made me blue I wish one day to be in your heart Getting my feelings out is a start Together you and I we'll never fall apart Back in the day I always wished That I was the guy you kissed It see

Eyes are dry again No it can depend On no one noticing Run to hide my tears They won't have to share Over all these years I've shed the fewest tears That they've known about But I can't help it now While calculating how Much I'll be alone My best friends always cared Of tangles in my hair But does she Care about my tangled up life And for my only one High school will soon be done And where will I turn When I'm so alone All the one I care about Lost and gone with no way out Everything's falling apart Just when I was happy But now I'm on my way To being all alone Going to be all alone

Oh lord the voice inside my head Thinks it's my own The slow pumping of blood running through the brain The pumping pumping with my pain It's the hangover hangover going on The headache won't let me sleep And I'm not really awake This is hell never drinking again The thoughts that cross my mind Are not as clear as I'd like Feel like someone came running And kicked me inside the flashing of the lights is Making me making me so nauseous So I keep the bucket near just being cautious It's the hangover hangover going on And I hate myself for killing my own brains Because the pumping pumping won't stop It's just my brain letting me know It's the ha

I want to be there to help your wounds to heal This pain without you is something only I can feel I miss your face your tender little hands But right now I'm just trying to get by without you as my lullaby Been a few years now but I still miss you Like a broken mirror that can't be fixed is how my heart is today Since you've been gone I have to get by but I want you by my side We had so many dreams together can they still come true I'm looking out my window watching the stars I'm still wondering are you seeing them too I want to be there to help your wounds to heal This pain without you is something only I can feel I miss your face your tende

I have written many signs A flower's touch an angry climb And every time I see you starring Out the window there It's a dreamer's face The lasts throughout the lifetime And the eyes that reflect the misty white sky It's the fellow's desk That lightens all the sometimes And it calls me to you through your simple voice I have lived my years Questioning existence and when you cry It seems to me like I've broken some promises And it seems like you've almost died It's a dreamer's face The lasts throughout the lifetime And the eyes that reflect the misty white sky It's the fellow's desk That lightens all the sometimes And it calls me to you through

A strange comparison with darkness Palpable night heat it hovers If you laid your head over my heart You would hear the roar of an ocean Pain seeping deeply now Where once a pleasure did manifest Sleepy eyed child in my bed Did you fear before it came as if stagnant waters Blur out color and imagination Wounds in time that just scab over merely just a forgotten hurt The air tonight littered with death smells of winter's last day Unchained thoughts provoke temptations In truths they bury us haunted memories of a life unlit Pour the body and blood for faith we hang ourselves Seeing the answers before fading to black Silence in a hush shattered

I would have told you I love you If we hadn't been saying goodbye With the end always a breath away It never seemed real to me Like vapors disappearing And even though you're gone today There's a ghost lurking within my mind I wanted you to know me To make sense of a heart gone wrong I wanted you to need me the way I needed you And to wash away the sins of thought and deed You were too perfect to grasp And too wonderful to touch But now that you're gone All I have are fading memories And a ghost walking within my mind It's only now that you haunt me On quiet lonely nights When the wind carries your name into my ear Leave me adrift in a sea of

Sweet soft slow songs Playing in the backgrounds to sweet thoughts of you I'll walk home tired and depressed Wishing I was walking with you but I'm all alone And you're with him I try to tell you I could be more open but you just can't see How I feel about your depression kick in Medications out reach for the knife But your picture catches my eyes And I sit and think maybe that I'll be with you tomorrow Sweet soft songs playing in the backgrounds To sweet thoughts of you I've always been alone Till now I don't know how to feel Or what to say to you I may not be to religious But I pray to god for you tomorrow you'll be happy Whether you're wit

You live in an exaggerated reality You're too protective and won't let go And you hate my friends because They're not good enough Like anything ever will be You're a contradiction You don't want me to smoke or drink But you can what gives You the right to control me Okay let's obey mom's opinion Instead of our won for once Oh wait that's right We aren't allowed opinions I didn't need the councilor to tell me Feelings to why wouldn't you ask me Oh you expected me to have no feeling Because I am only fucking human But then seen as I'm living with you I must be fucking superhuman My mind is contaminated with morbid Thoughts and risky feel

Tired but we grind beyond belief Gnashing in our little teeth As we push towards the object in the sun Hidden from both our eyes The more we search the less we find And but through all of this we feel obliged To search for mysteries not known to you or me Each step we take in vain towards the sky You've led me here so many times before But each time this desert seems new to us The constant struggle we now hold To find a way to make it home My weary eyes beseeches the stream Full of cool blue water to quench this dream To bathe in bliss just this one time The stream fades as we push further in this climb The pain we feel runs through our joint