Back in the day
When nothing was wrong
I didn't know anything all along
Back in the day when the world was all right
All I could think of was holding you tight
I was afraid to take a stance
Even though I had a chance
But everything now I'm brand new
Although apart I still feel I'm with you
I rarely see your face
But past memories capture it in place
I keep replaying them all the time
In the back of my mind
Thinking about the time without you
Surely has made me blue
I wish one day to be in your heart
Getting my feelings out is a start
Together you and I we'll never fall apart
Back in the day I always wished
That I was the guy you kissed
It see
Eyes are dry again
No it can depend
On no one noticing
Run to hide my tears
They won't have to share
Over all these years
I've shed the fewest tears
That they've known about
But I can't help it now
While calculating how
Much I'll be alone
My best friends always cared
Of tangles in my hair
But does she
Care about my tangled up life
And for my only one
High school will soon be done
And where will I turn
When I'm so alone
All the one I care about
Lost and gone with no way out
Everything's falling apart
Just when I was happy
But now I'm on my way
To being all alone
Going to be all alone
Oh lord the voice inside my head
Thinks it's my own
The slow pumping of blood running through the brain
The pumping pumping with my pain
It's the hangover hangover going on
The headache won't let me sleep
And I'm not really awake
This is hell never drinking again
The thoughts that cross my mind
Are not as clear as I'd like
Feel like someone came running
And kicked me inside the flashing of the lights is
Making me making me so nauseous
So I keep the bucket near just being cautious
It's the hangover hangover going on
And I hate myself for killing my own brains
Because the pumping pumping won't stop
It's just my brain letting me know
It's the ha
I want to be there to help your wounds to heal
This pain without you is something only I can feel
I miss your face your tender little hands
But right now I'm just trying to get by without you as my lullaby
Been a few years now but I still miss you
Like a broken mirror that can't be fixed is how my heart is today
Since you've been gone I have to get by but I want you by my side
We had so many dreams together can they still come true
I'm looking out my window watching the stars
I'm still wondering are you seeing them too
I want to be there to help your wounds to heal
This pain without you is something only I can feel
I miss your face your tende
I have written many signs
A flower's touch an angry climb
And every time I see you starring
Out the window there
It's a dreamer's face
The lasts throughout the lifetime
And the eyes that reflect the misty white sky
It's the fellow's desk
That lightens all the sometimes
And it calls me to you through your simple voice
I have lived my years
Questioning existence and when you cry
It seems to me like I've broken some promises
And it seems like you've almost died
It's a dreamer's face
The lasts throughout the lifetime
And the eyes that reflect the misty white sky
It's the fellow's desk
That lightens all the sometimes
And it calls me to you through
A strange comparison with darkness
Palpable night heat it hovers
If you laid your head over my heart
You would hear the roar of an ocean
Pain seeping deeply now
Where once a pleasure did manifest
Sleepy eyed child in my bed
Did you fear before it came as if stagnant waters
Blur out color and imagination
Wounds in time that just scab over merely just a forgotten hurt
The air tonight littered with death smells of winter's last day
Unchained thoughts provoke temptations
In truths they bury us haunted memories of a life unlit
Pour the body and blood for faith we hang ourselves
Seeing the answers before fading to black
Silence in a hush shattered
I would have told you I love you
If we hadn't been saying goodbye
With the end always a breath away
It never seemed real to me
Like vapors disappearing
And even though you're gone today
There's a ghost lurking within my mind
I wanted you to know me
To make sense of a heart gone wrong
I wanted you to need me the way I needed you
And to wash away the sins of thought and deed
You were too perfect to grasp
And too wonderful to touch
But now that you're gone
All I have are fading memories
And a ghost walking within my mind
It's only now that you haunt me
On quiet lonely nights
When the wind carries your name into my ear
Leave me adrift in a sea of
Sweet soft slow songs
Playing in the backgrounds to sweet thoughts of you
I'll walk home tired and depressed
Wishing I was walking with you but I'm all alone
And you're with him I try to tell you
I could be more open but you just can't see
How I feel about your depression kick in
Medications out reach for the knife
But your picture catches my eyes
And I sit and think maybe that I'll be with you tomorrow
Sweet soft songs playing in the backgrounds
To sweet thoughts of you I've always been alone
Till now I don't know how to feel
Or what to say to you I may not be to religious
But I pray to god for you tomorrow you'll be happy
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You live in an exaggerated reality
You're too protective and won't let go
And you hate my friends because
They're not good enough
Like anything ever will be
You're a contradiction
You don't want me to smoke or drink
But you can what gives
You the right to control me
Okay let's obey mom's opinion
Instead of our won for once
Oh wait that's right
We aren't allowed opinions
I didn't need the councilor to tell me
Feelings to why wouldn't you ask me
Oh you expected me to have no feeling
Because I am only fucking human
But then seen as I'm living with you
I must be fucking superhuman
My mind is contaminated with morbid
Thoughts and risky feel
Tired but we grind beyond belief
Gnashing in our little teeth
As we push towards the object in the sun
Hidden from both our eyes
The more we search the less we find
And but through all of this we feel obliged
To search for mysteries not known to you or me
Each step we take in vain towards the sky
You've led me here so many times before
But each time this desert seems new to us
The constant struggle we now hold
To find a way to make it home
My weary eyes beseeches the stream
Full of cool blue water to quench this dream
To bathe in bliss just this one time
The stream fades as we push further in this climb
The pain we feel runs through our joint